Monday, May 11, 2009

The Start...My Very First Blog


HERE GOES....
MY FIRST EVER BLOG ENTRY

I am just jumping in....trial by fire. Thanks to Twitter I have been introduced to the blog world.

I know I am supposed to ask myself "What is the purpose" of my blog? I love to write and I have gotten away from writting for too long. So my gut says to get the creative juices flowing again. My other gut says it can be both theraputic and entertaining. Than finally my last gut tells me that I am not writing enough down about my 2 year old daughter. I want to keep these memories alive in my brain which is slowly aging. Maybe by blogging some of my memories they will keep?

Sooooo how do I start this blog? Well I guess I just did. Do you want to know more about me? LOL I am a married mom of a 2 year old. I am a working mom who would love to be an at home mom. I have lots of guilt. Guilt about everything. That is the Jew in me. Am I a good enough mom? Could I have more Patience? Wasn't I going to be the mom who never yelled? Expectations were high for me as I tried to get pregnant for 7 years. Had Invitro, Had a Stillborn (sigh for another time), Had Invitro Again, 6 months on bedrest and had a beautiful heathy daughter, Sophie. I finally got what I wanted my entire a life...to be a Mommy.



I could go on and on like any mom about the wonders of being a mommy. How beautiful it is to have a little me running around. She is perfect. Motherhood is all I expected and more...however it is also what I didn't fantasy about..ITS HARD!


I guess my dreams must have included me dressed in a super woman costume or something. It did NOT include the balancing act of working, being a mom, being a wife and this is where I turned to Twitter and Blogs...to find others like me who can admit to at times feeling overwhelmed and can lean on each other and most importantly laugh at life.


Everytime I connect with a mommy friend who GETS IT I know I am a normal mom and stop guilting myself for once. So thats why I am here. Hi. My name is Heather and I am Sophie's mom...whose mommy are you? After all....its all about them and some how this blog will always bring me back to my Sophie "RoRo" cause I am her Momma.